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You’re in the safest arms, my sweet jarrid. I am confused, completely heartbroken and jealous that you are face to face with our savior all in one . You are in HIS presence. What a glorious day that will be when we are all reunited at his feet together. Until then, he is holding on tight to the boys and I during these horribly dark days . He won’t let us go. He never, ever has. I’m clinging to Him. I’m missing you. He will strengthen and help me. He will hold the boys and I up with his victorious right hand . I have such a deep peace knowing he’s holding your hand right now too. I love you so much, babe. I miss you beyond words. I will continue to shout your anthem of hope until my very last breath . Don’t be afraid, for I am with you. Don’t be discouraged, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you. I will hold you up with my victorious right hand. Isaiah 41:10 . Thank you so much for this beautiful artwork, @harmonydesignshop. Such a gift .
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I love this dude. But you know what? It’s not always easy loving him. Why? Because I’m human, and loving someone more than myself doesn’t come easily. I can feel my sin nature rub up against all that God has taught me and theres a friction between the two: between who I am naturally and who I long to be spiritually . Yeah, I know...Instagram gets shy when we say stuff like that. Aren’t we supposed to be #GOALS? Isn’t love just effortless when you find the “right “person?! Hate to break it to y’all, but that’s just not true . @jarridwilson and I have been faced with tough conversations, hard situations and moments where throwing in the towel would be a lot easier than cleaning up the mess that found its way into our relationship . Jare publicly struggles with depression and anxiety, and I sometimes struggle with adding to it by telling him to just “get over it” (yes, I know there’s no such thing), but ya know, I’m human. And selfish. And so in need of the grace that I so often withhold from this man . I don’t know why I’m sharing this, really, except to just remind you that we all deal with stuff that others don’t really know about. There’s tears we cry that no human will ever see. Prayers we pray that seem to go unheard. Feelings that try to drown out the truth that God has so clearly shown us . This is where God comes in. He’s there. He’s listening. He sees the tears. He feels the pain. He longs to comfort you. And you know what else? There are men and women out there, counselors, that are available when you feel like you need someone to talk to, too. Not as a replacement for your relationship with God, but as a wonderful addition. He has equipped them with knowledge and discernment to help you along this journey called the Christian life. This goes for marriage, depression, anxiety and everything else far and in between . YOU ARE NOT ALONE. In your job, in your depression, in your marriage, in your singleness, in whatever season you’re in, God is with you. He cares. He has a purpose for you that is beyond what you could ever imagine. When life knocks you down, look up and reach out. There are people who care an awful lot. I promise. ♥️ #anthemofhope